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Pulsing: a new way of experiencing your body; a new way of experiencing yourself

Life’s a real sh*t show.

First you got dragged kicking and screaming from the safety and comfort of the womb into a dystopian nightmare of consumerism, capitalism, patriarchy, ecological crisis and technological insanity.

You couldn’t see, crawl, walk, feed yourself or even breathe.

That alone would be enough to put anyone off this whole living thing.

But to add insult to injury, you then had to put up with almost two decades of inept parenting.

It’s no wonder you’re a bloody mess.

But you survived it, didn’t you?

You’re here. 

You’re alive.

And you know what they say… you’ve got to make the best of it.

But how?

How can you actually enjoy all this work, and relationship, and meaning stuff when you’re carrying all that baggage from your past?

It’s in your bones. In your muscles. That all-pervasive feeling of being somehow trapped in your own skin.

Unable to get what you want.

Unable to ask for what you need.

Unheard.

Unseen.

Unsatisfied.

Unloved.

Unloveable.

Unable to become the person you know, deep down inside, that you’re capable of being.

Well, you’re not alone.

We’ve all been damaged.

We’ve all been hurt.

We’ve all, at some point, had our desire for deeper connection denied, scorned, shamed, ridiculed, punished or undermined.

We’ve all erected defences to protect ourselves from the same thing happening again.

Defences that live in the body.

Defences that dictate how we react to others, what we dare to go after, what we keep hidden inside of ourselves.

Defences that keep us safe yes, but at the cost of stopping us from opening up to the possibility, the joy, the ease of a life lived with everything we’ve got to throw at it.

Pulsing is a transformative style of bodywork that aims to gently and gradually break down these defences.

It uses soothing rocking along with breath, voice and passive movement to help you experience your body in new ways. This ‘holistic self-experiencing’ allows your bodymind to recognise, process and let go of old, unhelpful patterns that get in the way of you living your best life.

In fortnightly 90-minute sessions, I will guide you through a process of deep inner exploration, somatic experiencing and, where it’s needed, emotional release and integration.

So you can let go of the sh*t show.

And start enjoying the You show.

I’m on a life-long mission to heal the mind-body split

I was so stuck for such a long time.

For years I struggled to understand the roots of my dissatisfaction – my deep-seated feeling that no matter how hard I tried that nothing ever really went well for me. Jobs, relationships, friendships, businesses, hobbies and interests, love, health, happiness – none of them ever seemed to fulfil on their promise.

I always felt underserved, underappreciated, out of place and misunderstood.

I tried talk therapy, spiritual questing, meditation, psychedelics, self-medication with a number of different substances, journaling, Tarot, visualisation – but even though I understood that nothing was really wrong with me, that I already had all the answers I needed, I would still confront the same self-loathing, the same self-sabotaging patterns again and again.

The problem, I now know, was that I was trying to use my mind to resolve issues that were held in the body.

I was trying to use mental power to solve a physical, energetic problem.

Luckily, one day I got a massage. And everything changed.

Okay, not overnight.

There wasn’t some great epiphany that happened on the massage table and then everything was rosy.

But I started to experience my body differently.

I began to learn my own body’s language.

I began to realise that all the baggage I was carrying from my childhood was still there, in the muscles and the tendons and the bones and the joints.

There were all these scars, and walls that I’d erected within myself to defend those scars.

And those walls were keeping me hemmed in. They only let me behave within a certain range. They only let me feel certain feelings. They only let me express certain behaviours.

And so I started on a mission of trying to dismantle those walls one by one.

Brick by brick.

Until one day I would be able to inhabit the full range of myself.

To feel and express all the feelings.

To live free from my conditioning.

So now I’m a bodyworker.

And it gives me great joy to share what I’ve learned with others.

I help them start dismantling their own walls, so they can live freer too.

We’ll be a great fit for working together if…

  • You appreciate that healing your nervous system takes time and effort and you’re ready to begin working towards a life of greater presence and connection;
  • You’ve already done some self-exploration through other forms of therapy, spiritual practices, self-help books or coaching, but it feels like a major part of the puzzle has been missing;
  • You’re into music and dancing (even if you think you’re not very good at it);
  • You have no problem admitting that you have no idea what’s going on;
  • You are aware that you are an animal;
  • You also know that you are more than an animal;
  • You have an open mind when it comes to other people’s reality tunnels – eastern medicine, ayurveda, astrology and animism are all of interest to you.

We probably won’t click if…

  • You’re looking for a quick fix, for someone to fix you or for some secret trick or hack that’s going to magically erase your symptoms overnight;
  • You’re not prepared to go into uncomfortable territory in order to learn more about yourself;
  • You want to learn how to control your feelings rather than get better at feeling your feelings;
  • You want to go over and over the same old stories of how people in your life are the cause of your discontent instead of looking for the cause in you;
  • You can’t keep appointments;
  • You’re afraid of looking silly;
  • You’re afraid to try.

Get started with Pulsing

Just fill out the short form and I’ll get back to you with a link to my calendar.

This is so you can schedule a quick 10-minute Zoom call where we can make sure that Pulsing is right for you (and that I’m the right practitioner), before we book you in for a trial session.

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Your first session will begin with an extended consultation to talk through what you’re looking to get out of Pulsing. I’ll also double check the information you’ve put in your intake form (which I’ll send you in advance) for anything that would contraindicate Pulsing for you.

Then there’ll be up to 60 minutes of hands-on bodywork, leaving plenty of time at the end of the session for integration.

The bodywork is delivered with you lying on a regular massage table, fully clothed, and consists of continuous rocking accompanied by specific stretches and movements which are designed to guide and direct your awareness to different parts of your body.

During this time you may enter something like an altered state where deep emotion more easily rises into conscious awareness. I will help you feel, express and process that emotion by holding space for it and by prompting you to involve more of your body, breath and voice.

After a session it is common for people to feel deeply relaxed or even sleepy, but equally commonly people become energised, and feel more awake and aware.

You should leave yourself plenty of time after a Pulsing session to process what’s happened before engaging in any demanding physical, mental or social activities.

I need to be able to pick up your limbs and move them around, so loose comfortable clothing that doesn’t restrict your movement is best. Lycra can be a bit too slippery, so think tracky bottoms and a t-shirt. No jeans – the buttons and waistband makes bodywork difficult.

Sessions happen in warm, comfortable, confidential treatment rooms at Healing Space on Chatsworth Road in Lower Clapton, Hackney.

A 90-minute session includes 60-minutes of hands-on bodywork and costs £110.

The recommended frequency is once every two weeks.

This gives your bodymind enough time to process what’s happened at the previous session but isn’t long enough for your old conditioning to take hold again.

Pulsing is not so good for people with hypermobility, advanced osteoporosis, herniated disks or other severe spinal injuries, any risk of thrombosis, epilepsy, or in the first trimester or last few weeks of pregnancy.

You should let me know before the session about any current injuries, illnesses or other serious health conditions.

Because Pulsing is a regressive therapy, it’s also not for children or anyone who has required serious mental health interventions in the past.

Ready to experience yourself differently?

Let’s talk and see if Pulsing is right for you.

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“Once we open up to the flow of energy within our body, we can also open up to the flow of energy in the universe.”

Wilhelm Reich